the nazis are invading

So I know this is going to sound weird, but.. my cat is a nazi. My cat Dizzle. Everynight ( or early morning rather) she attacks me in my sleep.. Brutally. At first I thought it was because she wanted to be petted, but even when I pet her she still attacks me. Well, the other day my brother and I were staying up late watching a movie or something and Dizzle just starts putting her paw in the air. Hailing Hitler. There was nothing for her to swat at so that couldn't have been why she was doing it. And then it all came together. She likes to attack me because I am not blond and blue eyed. So basically she is going to kill me and my siblings and let my mother live. So we decided that I would have to write a diary called "The Diary of Brittany Garcia" and all jr.highers would have to read it. And in discussing this with Candice, we have realized that there are more nazis than just my cat. For example, the once beloved steve trainer ( the hot personal trainer at ballys whom I was supposed to marry) is indeed a nazi. He didn't pick up my towel when it fell behind me on the treadmil. He walked by, stopped looked at it, looked at me and kept walking. If I were blonde, I'm sure he would have picked it up. So all of you who aren't blond.. watch out the nazis are back!

why was I given this family?

So I have never really stopped and thought about my family before all this crap with my dad went down. And I'm talking about my extended family. I know that God gave me this family for a reason.. but I just can't see it. It's like I would be beter off without a family. The poeple on my dad's side don't even know who the heck I am! And I wish I could say that it's better on my moms side. On the one hand I could say that.. I mean.. after all I do get presants from that side... but they still don't know me either. Some of them aren't related to me, but that shouldn't matter right? And what really angers me is that they don't care that they don't know me!! I am going to move away from talking about my dad's side because they are always drunk anyway and I won't be seeing them. So anyway.. and it's not just that they don't know me it's the fact that we were never close. I see people who are truly close to their grandparents.. and i'm not. I know a bunch of stuff about them but what do they know about me? .. oh that i go to dominguez hills. My cousing freaking thought I was still in highschool! and that was as of a week ago! And they weren't even involved in my life until my real grandma died. wtf. And what really angers me is the fact that families are supposed to be there for each other. When all this dad drama went down.. they didn't help us ( and still don't) all they do is tell my mom how she's never going to survive with what she's making and how she won't be able to keep the house ..etc.. basically anything negative. But then they can go and buy new cars! they all do! wtf. but they have no money to help us out. Whatevs. I don't need you! We got sooo much help and support from the church it's insane! and my own family couldn't even offer a kind word! My grandpa and step-grandmother offered to help me with school. But whenever I would have them help me, it was like the end of the world! U freaking can buy a car but can't willingly give me $200 that u said you would? idk. I just majorly vented. But it makes me sad that I don't have a family who is close and really knows me.

what a weekend!

I had a marvelous weekend. Saturday I took Candice to her first hardcore show with stacee susanna and omar. It was kind of weird because it was a house show. My friends band was playing. But it was fun. Then on Sunday I got another tattoo and saw Prince caspian. Prince Capspian was good, ,.. but it doesn't follow the book ( and I have already discussed how I love the book) So that was my grand weekend!

college

So after next week I will have completed my first year in college! I really can't believe it. I have learned so much already. Going into it, I was scared out of my mind. I thought it was going to be sooo hard. On the first day of school I felt so out of place and so young. Everyone seemed so much older than me. ( some really were which I was not used to) Now I don't feel that way anymore. My first semester was really easy. Easier than most of my highschool semesters, but second semester.. I can't say the same. I went into college thinking that I would just do my work and get through school. I wouldn't have to talk to anyone, but I've met many people and it makes school not only easier, but a lot more fun too. ( Since I don't naturally love school like percey does) I also learned that procrastination isn't all that bad. I used to never procrastinate, But now it seems inevitable with work and all. When I was in highschool all I did was go to school. But now it seems I have no time. I really like college. I like the fact that I don't have to go to school all day, and I get to not go to class if I know that I don't have to or need the time to do something else. There is so much more freedom. I am happy that I choose the school that I did and I am glad that I have completed what I have so far. ( hopefully I do well, on my finals next week so I can continue to be proud of myself!) I feel like a big kid now! :)

my narnia post

So Prince Caspian is coming out soon and I am supremely excited. That is my favorite book out of all 7. It deals a lot with faith and courage. Both of which are very important. Of coarse the story of Aslan dying for Narnia is ultra important too. I always thought that Aslan was a better example of God then, lets say the passion of the Christ. For example, I was really sad in that movie, but I was ultra sad when Aslan died. Is it because he's a cute Lion? I'm sure that helps but now I think I know why. I think it is just so much easier to see all the aspects of who God is with Aslan, he is mighty, yet loving, and fatherly too. And I just want to hug him!

Completely unmotivated

So I really don't want to go to school tomorrow. But.. I have to, can't skip because I only have two weeks left and finals week. So I am supremely excited about almost being out of school. And no summer classes for me! Just work... and fun. And hopefully marrying Steve Trainer in the parking lot in between penguins and Bally's. hehehe. So I have decided that I haven't had anything insightful to say since I got this thing. and .. I'm sorry. So I will get off for now.