Tuesday, August 18, 2009

gonna rock the floor, gonna dance to the tempo

So here i sit looking at the lack of advice I got on my last blog. Clearly no one reads these things. But I still type for myself and for the fact that maybe it will help me later on in life.
I am also inserting all my music back into my computer. We had to get 56 viruses taken off so that also meant all my music is lost. It has taken me at least a month and I am nearing the end. It is just crazy when you think about it. Like how are they able to put music on discs and how r things like cd players and computers able to read them? It is also crazy to look at my little gold ipod and see all the thousands of songs that it holds. The other day al and I went to amoeba music and I looked at the big records in awe. How did people figure out how to record something and put it on vinyl? I just don't get it. But I sure do appreciate it. But what I do not appreciate in computer viruses. Hopefully I won't have to do this again for a long time

Friday, August 14, 2009

Bring your ship about to watch a friend drown, stood over the ledge begged you to come down. You can only lean on me for so long

Question: lets say u have a friend. And you used to be very close but then that friend started hanging out with the wrong crowd, but you were still there for her. And the wrong crowd left her and you were there. But you werent fun enough so she tried to find other people and ended up hanging with the worst crowd. But you were still there for her. And she decided to live a life that is not very good. But you were still there for her. And you accepted her still and didn't judge her and you let her know that you were there. But then she pushed you away becuase she knew what she was doing was wrong. You tell her she needs to change her life so she pushes you away more. What do you do now? Do you still try to put up with her nonsense or do u just let her live her life?
This is basically what I am dealing with now. I am exhausted and there are soo many thoughts spinning around my head. Do I still try to b there for her or do I wash my hands of the situation? I feel like the "Jesus" thing to do would b to still b there and listen to her shenanigans and baby her like everyone else does to try and get her to stop. But I mean, if people don't want to listen and they don't want to change, what can you do?
If I could get some feedback I would greatly appreciate it.